I don't even know where to begin. I have been putting this post off for quite sometime. There has been so many blessings that have come to our family! I am in such awe at all the things that have happened. a lot of which I feel like are so special, that I cannot share here.
For the last 9-10 months, I have been going back to church. I started saying my prayers, asking for the want to go back. Things in my life quickly changed. From that, my life has blossomed, and has created something I was not expecting. I was doing this merely for myself, and for Kai. It has spread into having missionaries over monthly for dinner ( i wanted to serve, and that's a way i enjoy serving most, is cooking for others). Through that, my husband ( who is not a member of the church) started finding a much deeper level of interest...so much so, he expressed his want to read the Book of Mormon ( one night while missionaries had the scriptures out). I have never read it, and thought what a wonderful opportunity for me to read it as well. That same night, missionaries asked Phil if they could start coming weekly for missionary lessons, he promptly said YES! what was going on? maybe he didn't understand what that meant. we later talked, and he told me he understood, and that he wanted to ( that's all i will say, but thats the jist of things). I feel like Phil and I are having our own conversions. Sure i grew up in the church, and felt it was true, but had never been fully converted for myself. On may 5th ( yes cinco de mayo), Phil had his first Missionary lesson! Here is a picture of all of them:

we had one also on Mothers day, and this Sunday, we will be having them over for dinner as well ( and also serving dinner to brother Moon, and his family). Phil is so excited to grill for them, and have them over!
Ps, after Phils first missionary lesson, he came to me and said maybe he should start attending church. Last Sunday ( Mothers day), I kept having the urge to ask Phil if he wanted to go...i finally did it, 15 mins before i was to leave ( im a super on time person and 15 mins make me sweat haha)..anyways, surprisingly he said yes, and then got ready. The plan was to stay for sacrament only. After sacrament he decided to stay for sunday school, then for priesthood. When we got home, he told me about the lessons that were given, and that he actually liked it. I told him that I didnt want to pressure him just because it was Mothers day, but he said that it wasnt because it was mothers day, he just had the want to go. I always let phil know that all of this is never to make him feel pressured. He always reassures me that if he didnt want to do something, then he would not do it! Ps, we didnt get a family photo for mothers day, but i did take this photo of daddy and kai playing and tickling. This is what these guys do when they are near each other. Tickle torture at its finest. Phil is a phenomenal father. I swear he wants 5 kids because he just wants added playmates! haha

Through this, I have been wanting to do family home evening. I asked a friend of mine to help me better understand how she does it with her young children ( who are also friends with kai). She ended up coming over for dinner. I taught her how to make focaccia bread turning them into grilled pizzas, and we spent the whole night outside with the kids! Then we came in, sang some primary songs, had a lesson, had prayer, then ate some coconut oil/honey/chia seed popcorn she had made. Note to self: must make some!! It was so good! here are pics from that night:

We all had such a fantastic time! I can't wait to keep doing our own family home evenings from now on. Phil and I plan on going to the temple grounds often to the visitors center, and watching some of the movies. can't wait!

Also, I recently bought subscriptions to the Ensign, and the Friend magazines. I was so excited to get the conference issue of the Ensign because it was one of my most favorite of all the conferences so far. I have some valuable reasons why..just another thing that is so special, that remains private. Anyways, I wish I could better express what is going on, but the happiness we feel is on such a deep level! We have been married for almost 6 years now, and we have always had a a great(best friend)relationship...but it hasn't been till this year, that things have blossomed into such an amazing marriage, and family life! I had no idea that these feelings could exist! I am so happy that I took this step. I had no idea the blessings it would bring over and over again! Im still pinching myself, and saying my prayers, and thanking the Lord for all of this! Life has so much meaning, and I am so thankful for my family, and for my most loving, patient, and respectful husband! We both agree that God put us together for a much higher plan than we could have even dreamt of! Life is so exciting for us, and we can't wait for our future! Gosh, I wish i could explain all that I mean! BUT i just want to share our happiness, and know that I need to write these things down. I also need to write it in a real journal. Just another something i want/need to work on! Ps, Im thankful to all who have welcomed me back to church, including my wonderful neighbors that I grew up with. Im thankful for the prayers that were said in my behalf ( you know who you are!). Im also thankful for our new friends who we do play dates with! They are an amazing family, and I look up to them so much. Instant life long friends for sure! Im also thankful for my loving, and patient parents who were always behind me even when I chose different paths in life. Im very thankful for a husband who has loved me, and has put up with me through this transition, Im thankful for my kids who love me no matter what, and Im so very grateful for everything the Lord has given me! -M